Coffee Chats | Anxiety #3

(this post will have a different start compared to my other posts. It’s just that I like it this way…)

I very vividly remember the first time I ever heard of a panic attack. I was watching a program about people having an addiction to collect items, but then these other people showed up at their house and started helping them clearing and sorting out the houses and their owner. Then this one lady had a panic attack – she simply found it too overwhelming to have people trashing all these things which she felt attached to. When she had her panic attack I felt so sorry for her, because it looked like it was the most horrible thing ever. Now here I am 8 years later and struggle with them myself.

I have already touched on anxiety on my blog (hence the #3 since it’s part 3) And for a long period I’ve felt like I didn’t struggle with it anymore. Like I’ve learnt to deal with the situations I was scared of. I’m still beyond proud of myself for making this improvement, mainly because I thought it would be something I’d struggle with my entire life. Now the reason why I’ve decided to bring back the anxiety subject is because there’s something new to it… here you go:

So as most of you know I’ve started at Gymnasium (very similar to a High School) I was really scared and nervous about it – but also SUPER excited. Now, I’ve been there for a good month now, and I’m slowly starting to get the everyday routine. Don’t get me wrong, everything is still incredible new, but not quite the same scale of new anymore. Now, let’s get to my point. Last week I was sat in the canteen enjoying a slice of pizza with my friends. Then all of a sudden (and literally out of ‘nowhere’) a wave of fear and anxiety just hit me from behind. I started shaking, feeling like I’d faint any minute, my heart started beating like crazy, I could feel my throat tightening & I started crying. I was SO SO scared! So scared that I actually thought I would die. I called my Mum and she brought me home for a cuppa tea and a talk. As soon as I got home I felt LOADS better. However, over this last week it has happened 3 times. And let me tell you; It’s without a doubt one of the craziest and most scaring things I’ve ever experienced in my life.

So, what to do about all this? Well, a therapist. As I’m writing this I’ve only had one meeting with her & I already feel loads better. She just described it so well, and explained to me what is happening and why it’s probably happening. I don’t want to say too much about what we were talking about, but bottom line is that atm i have 3 assignments a week, I’m in school from 8 am – 3.30 pm & then I struggle a lot with being too perfectionistic. Not a lot of people can see the cons about doing everything til maximum perfection. However, I’d like describe it as a gift and a curse. I love it & I hate it.

You might be wondering about why I decided to do this post. Well, what I want you guys (and myself) to get out of this post is:

  • It has never been embarrassing to talk to a therapist | For a long time I didn’t want to talk to a therapist mainly because I didn’t presume I’d get that much out of it. BUT GOSH I was SO wrong. If you struggle with pretty much anything mentally – Go se a therapist! They will help you clarify what’s going on and why it may be happening.
  • 20% of Danes between the age 16-24 struggle with stress & anxiety | I know the numbers are probably different in your country. However, all I want to say with this percentage is that you’re not alone in all this. There’re so many people struggling just like you & me. And then there’s all the amazing people who dealt with it and now live a life where THEY decided what/what not to feel.
  • Anxiety is scary AF but it’s NOT dangerous | This is a thought I still need to get use to. I mean when a panic attack is happening and I literally feel like I may die – then it’s kind of difficult to understand that it isn’t dangerous – but it really ISN’T!
  • By telling one’s stories about mental health/illnesses we’ll help each other | Like I mentioned before it’s nice to feel like you aren’t alone when it comes to mental illnesses. However, I feel like there’s a certain taboo about not feeling well and that my friends; that’s something I’m up for changing!

That’s all I have for you this time. I found this post a little more difficult to write and talk about than a “What’s in my handbag” post (obviously) However, I’m really glad I did it. I’ve just started talking to my therapist, which means that this is a long journey that I need to work on. And I can assure both you and myself of that it’s not gonna disappear in a month. NO, this will take a long time, but I’ll get there – & so will you!

Please like this post & let me know in the comments what you thought of this post & anxiety in general? Until next Sunday, I hope you’ll have the most wonderful week ever ❤ xx

21 Comments

    1. Karen Wodstrup

      Aww, well thank you for reading!
      Yes, perfectionism is a bit of a difficult one. But what’s so interesting about it is that so many people ‘struggle’ with it. I mean normally everyone would see it as a positive thing, but there’s just SO much more to it ❤
      I truly appreciate you for reading this and for always being so super supportive xxx

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  1. soyvirgo

    Hi Karen!
    I really love your theme it’s so much fun ❤
    Anyway thank you for sharing your posts about panic attacks. It's interesting to know because I do have friends who deal with them and I would like to have more insight on what they're all about.

    I don't believe I ever had one, but im not sure if i did when i was younger because i kept it to myself.

    i was outside during recess and i looked at the sky a bit. everything went kind of white and black. i was dizzy i felt like fainting and i was so scared that i cried. that wasn't the worst part. the worst was when i told my teacher who was known for being a b*tch.
    she literally said "stop crying, you know youre only doing it for attention"
    I still can't forget her face.
    Anyways that was just a scary feeling and im glad you're sharing abuot your experiences.
    also im glad you see your perfectionism as a gift because i kind of feel the same way sometimes.
    Again, great post and wow i love your blog ❤
    ― Kiki

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      Hi Kiki! First of all thank you so much for all your lovely and kind words – I truly appreciate it. So, it does kind of sound like what would happen in a panic attack, however there’s always some reason behind. So if you kind of know why you all of a sudden got anxious and started to feel like you’d faint – then yes, I’d consider it a panic attack ❤ What an awful teacher! I can't believe she responded that!!
      I'm really appreciative for this comment. Thank you so much for reading this post, and feel free to share it with your friends – I mean what helps me the most is to hear that I'm not the only one struggling, so I thought it may help your friends as well xxx I hope your autumn will be just as bright and colourful as the leafs ❤

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      yes, it actually really is bad. however, it always makes me feel loads better to hear that i’m not the only one struggling. i highly encourage people to speak openly about it. thank you so much for your sweet comment. it really put a smile on my face ❤ xx

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  2. Ciara's Little Blog

    Oh Karen, it must have been difficult for you to share such a personal experience, but thank you for doing so. People need to see just how many people suffer with anxiety and panic attacks, it’s all too common and this post is for sure gonna help to break that stigma. I’m wishing you the best for the rest of your therapy and hope you find some good coping mechanisms in them. Remember, it’s a marathon, not a race. Sending you all my love! x

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      First of all, thank you so much for always being so super supportive Ciara. That honestly means the absolute world to me. Yes, this was a rather difficult post to press publish on, mainly because it’s really personal. But, when I receive such lovely and support comments like yours it’s all worth it. I’ve actually never thought of it being a marathon and not a race – thank you so much for introducing me to that! I hope your week will be wonderful xx ❤❤

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      1. Ciara's Little Blog

        Personal posts are always a bit more tricky to publish because we are allowing ourselves to be a bit more vulnerable, but they usually always spark a good reaction and help others in the long run. Thank you so much, enjoy your week too! x

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  3. Cinnamon Buns and Roses

    I know the feeling of being a perfectionist and like you say, it was both a curse and a gift when I attended Gymnasium in Sweden. I didn’t suffer anxiety or panic attacks but I felt the stress for sure. Long days and assignments and test each week. It was a tough 3 years but the older I got at gymnasium the more laid back I became as I found a routine that worked for me. I think you are really strong to talk and write about your inner most feelings like you have in this post and you should be super proud of yourself. Sharing sometimes feels like a weight has been lifted and reading peoples comments confirms to us that we really are not alone in our struggles. Well done! Anna xx

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      Oh thank you so much Anna! This was everything I needed to hear right now. I honestly can’t thank you enough for this comment. Yes, like you said talking and writing about something as deep and vulnerable as this is really difficult. I am really glad I did it though. The Gymnasium life is hard, however I guess I still have all the time I need to figure it out – I mean I’ve literally only been attending for two months. Your support is forever appreciated. Comments like yours are one of the things that motivates me the most to keep on blogging ❤ ❤ I hope your week will be just wonderful xxx

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      Oh that makes me really sad to hear. It’s nice that you find posts like these helpful though – maybe you should recommend your friends to read them as well. Personally I find it really helpful and reassuring to read about others anxiety – just a though…? Anyway, thank you so much for reading – it means the absolute world to me ❤ ❤ xx

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  4. Chloe Luna

    This was so great 💞 (as always). It’s comforting for me to read other people’s stories regarding anxiety and you have such a calming energy anyway that it makes it even better. Hearing about your progress gives me hope and I’m so glad that you’re feeling better with things now that you’ve began talking to a therapist, it pushes me to keep going with my own struggles with anxiety. I’m looking forward to hearing how things continue to progress with yours 💫 thanks for sharing this angel xxx

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    1. Karen Wodstrup

      Aww Chloe dear! This comment truly put a smile on my face. It makes me so happy to hear that you found this helpful. I am in an incredibly difficult period right now, but I’m 100 percent positive that I’ll manage it. Thank you so much for reading and always supporting – it’s all very much appreciated ❤ xxx

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